Mom of 4 girls

wow!

2012-02-08T20:05:00.002-06:00

Gone for a long time! My computer crashed, then the other did! so I've been gone before even thanksgiving! I've been bored, lonely and the kids are getting big! So here are a few pictures to keep you tied over till I can really get back into writing. It's sad cause I was just starting to again!

Lily's hair cut

2011-11-23T21:29:00.002-06:00

this is what happens when your 4 year old asks your 10 year old to cut their hair!

If I die young _the band perry

2011-11-18T10:46:00.001-06:00

A rant about a sweet baby

2011-11-18T07:49:00.003-06:00

For once I agree with Nancy Grace, Usually she gets on my nerves. But with baby Tyler she's got it right on the money! How many times have I been frustrated, under stress and duress. Have I ever beat my kids? HELL NO!!! I believe in spanking nothing is wrong with that. beating i don't agree with and punching a baby all over till he dies and hiding his body in a cemetery and going back to sleep? Hell no! Why not just let him cry for a bit? I remember being frustrated and not even being able to take a shower when Katie was a baby! Stressed out about to loose it but did i hurt her? No I called my sister Kathleen who came to my house and watched her for a little bit in my home so I could take a shower and destress! I called for help! I still get stressed and frustrated come on i have 5 kids not just one. I lean on Josue and he me! I needed to destress the other night. I gave the baby to him, told katie to watch the others and took a bath!!! YOU DON'T BEAT THEM TO DEATH AND HIDE THEIR BODIES AND GO BACK TO SLEEP THEN CALL THE POLICE AND SAY HE'S MISSING! She had an entire support system! more of a support system than I ever saw! Being a single mom is hard but she lived with her mom! She went out the night before someone watched Tyler for her! She was able to get out and get away I never did and never did I think of hurting her! Leave him in his crib and turn the radio up a bit (not a lot) but enough to be able to relax for a few minutes and get yourself together. Don't kill your children! Crisis nursery we have one here in st louis! Call them!!! Get someone to help you! Don't have sex if you can't handle a baby! She loved him? How can you beat someone you love to death? She's a nut job and needs to be put away for life! Never to have kids again! harsh? not in my opinion and nothing anyone is going to say is going to change that opinion!

Others are saying she snapped and didn't realize what she did till it was over. Yea? She did? A baby? Usually a babies cries upset mom, did his cries not shock her out of it? Uh huh? She disposed of him like a piece of trash! Did she think she wasn't going to get caught? Why does this bug me so much? I know I don't know them and it should not but it's close to home (15 minutes away), I have a baby around his age, and the fact that she had such a huge support system in place. A babysitter, a mom who could help her, friends, other family. Even the neighbors said they would have helped her if she had needed it! I didn't really have anyone to turn to! I still don't! I haven't been out with my husband for years! I haven't been out of the house without at least one of my kids in years! I don't ever get away! I'm with them 365 days a year and yes it gets aggravating, but it's also rewarding! I am better off than her I have a husband to lean on. She had others to lean on. I remember being stressed out and just wanting to go to a darn movie when Katie was a baby and not being able to! I didn't have anyone to watch her for a couple hours! So I did what I had to, I stayed home and cared for her and you know what? I'm a better mom for it! I didn't miss ANYTHING of her life! I worked, sometimes over night shifts! I still picked her up from the baby sitter around 6:30 a.m. and having no sleep went home and stayed up with her till she would lay down for a nap and then slept when and as I could! Thankfully, I didn't have to work many of those over night shifts but I did! And i was working not partying! I hope she rots!

Kids :)

2011-11-17T11:00:00.003-06:00

How to love

2011-10-20T11:37:00.001-05:00

Bullying part 2

2011-10-20T08:13:00.006-05:00

Bullying comes in many forms. You aren't just bullied cause of your color, nationality, level of iq and looks. You can be bullied for many reasons, sometimes we don't know why or how bullies pick their victims. Sometimes even adults bully not only other adults but also children as well. My daughter Emelina is one of those stories.

Things were fine till she started school, but isn't this the way it goes? In kindergarten I guess the others realized she was different and Emelina is Emelina it's the only way I can really say about who Emelina really is. She's a little overweight, very sensitive and usually happy. But her reaction to things is probably what gets her bullied the most. She, like her mom, wears her heart on her sleeve. She doesn't hide things like other kids and doesn't really know how I don't think.

For example, Monday, she came home all upset because another girl flicked her off. Let's call her Tonya. Well, Emelina sat down in her seat next to her sister Hailey, when Tonya called Emelina's name and then just flicked her off! For no reason, and this child is 5! She is learning this stuff from her big sister Samantha. Samantha, used to be friends with Emeliina. Now she calls her a looser, fatty, whore, and other things I'm not even sure she knows what the words even mean. Kind of bold considering she's a tiny little thing and well Emelina isn't and will hit her and probably knock this kid on her butt! I talked to Hailey after Emelina left to take a bike ride to calm down. Hailey confirmed that her sister didn't do anything. Emelina tried to tell the bus driver and she proceeded to tell Emelina to sit down and shut up!

The bus driver, Maggie (sorry miss maggie lol had to change the names), is another one of the bullies. She allows, the other kids to do or say what they want and doesn't do anything about it. She's, had something out for my kids for years. We can't stand her! I don't know if it's cause they are hispanic or what but she picks on 3 out of 5 of my kids! None of the other kids have issues on the bus like mine. They get into trouble for doing things they aren't supposed to. she calls Emelina, Emily. She calls Hailey, Hillary. And she calls Katie, Katherine! Not even close!! But she knows the other kids names!

Yesterday, a little boy in Emelina's class said something to her as they got on the bus's. Emelina got really mad and slapped at the seat, missing the seat and accidently hitting this kid. She apologized to him since she didn't mean to hit him. He went and told mean old Maggie that Emelina did it on purpose, and now Emelina has to go to the principals office this morning! Now she doesn't deny hitting him, but it was accidental. Again confirmed by Hailey. She hit his knee, trust me if this kid meant to hit him it would have been his face. I know my daughter. Of course, she's the one getting into trouble even though he started it and said something to her. Emelina doesn't get mad for nothing and yes she should be in trouble but so should this kid.

Emelina told me yesterday that she hates going to breakfast and lunch. The kids all stare at her and it makes her uncomfortable. She said the adults do it like they are waiting for her to say something or do something to another child there. I always feel this way at this school. We aren't rich, actually pretty poor and they have called the state on us cause they don't have brand new clothes and such. Told them we don't feed these kids, and that I don't do laundry as well! Uhmmmmm, isn't that the machine I hear running in the other room!? I do about 4 loads a day average. They always have clean clothes, and who cares if we go to thrift stores and the free store. I don't buy crap clothes from these places. I only get things that are clean, look good and fit them. They have gotten lice from school and we've had to deal with this quite a bit in the past. Of course, it's always my kids that bring it to school. Uhmmm, really? Ok, maybe once or twice but where do you think they got it? They aren't allowed out of the house anymore and the lice has been gone for a while now so where is it coming from? duh, nurse, said they are clean!!!!

Hailey, doesn't get bullied as much but the kids her age around here don't want to play with her. She's got some issues and isn't on the level where she should be. But they aren't cruel to her. But with Emelina they sure are. Emelina was playing at the neighbors house the other day with a boy who is about 2 years younger than herself. They get along fine and we've never had problems there. All the sudden, Tonya comes up and tells her I can't play with you, you need to go home and sat there and said a bunch of mean things to her! Well I don't think so! Emelina was there first and if she can't play with her than she needs to leave!

Emelina went to another friends house the other day in the back of the trailer park to play and the 2 girls she was trying to play with were screaming at her. They told her she has lice and is nasty. She's clean, no lice, clean clothes, doesn't stink or anything else. It's Tonya and Samantha that have it and have been told by another parent here that my kids are always welcome. Why, cause when a lice breakout was happening she checked, every kid that came over. My 2 were the only ones clean!!!! Hers as well. She apologized to me but said that she felt she had to do this so her girls would remain clean. Not a problem for me. She said that Tonya came over and was infested. Later that same day Tonya was outside playing with all the kids out here but mine and the other 2 little ones and hadn't been treated!

Emelina, isn't physically bullied yet but that's coming. Right now, she's bigger than the other girls so that is probably why. But she comes home crying everyday almost, and it seems like I'm always having to soothe her. Emelina is very tenderhearted and gets upset very quickly and I'm sure this is a big reason. The girls all call her nasty, piggy, fatty, looser, and so much more. It makes me want to go out there and beat their arses! Of coruse, as an adult I can't. I've tried talking to the parents and teachers and it goes no where. The school has a zero tolerance policy and of course it doesn't work. The girls teasing her all are mean and nasty themselves. I dont' know how to stop any of this. Went through it myself. Sorry if we are poor and can't afford name brand clothing, sorry if we don't look like you with your white porcelin skin (other than my white self), sorry that Emelina is heavier (trust me we are trying to work on that one), sorry that she's not the same as every other kid out there.

So, today if the principal calls me. Well he's going to have a fight on his hands. I'm tired of this and will be telling him everything and if the harrassment on the bus, from the driver and kids, and the bullying at the school doesn't stop I will continue to go higher with the district. It seems they are always watching my girls. Even Katie, being at a different school. Seems like they always think that the bully's are the perfect ones. No none of my kids are perfect. They'll talk smack at you quicker than you can blink an eye but they don't normally do it first. Emelina was wrong in smacking at the seat yesterday and we did tell her that. If she hadn't done that she wouldn't have actually smacked that boys knee. But, she got mad and didn't know what to do with the anger either. I'm tired of the tears, anguish, anger, and plain old confusion as to why they do this to them. I want to move out of this district so bad, but we can't. Last year when Danni (girl), cussed Emelina out I went up to the school and she lied and got off scott free when I had a few witnesses even adults that backed my story! another case of bullies gone wild. They say they don't allow this type of behavior but I don't believe it.

There is more but I'll have to leave that for another day.

Bullying

2011-09-27T14:19:00.005-05:00

This is my sweet baby Emelina! She's 8 years old and in 3rd grade. I'm pretty upset with things with her. She's a good kid who loves to be with others. She's a bullied kid. Kids call her fat, jerk, ugly, stupid, looser and so much more. Sometimes, you just want to go postal on these kids and then you remember that they are children. So where is the parents? Why aren't they teaching their children right from wrong? More, on this story tomorrow. I'm going to write Emelina's story. All of it. It needs to be told and people need to see what is wrong.

love you miss Emelina!

Mom

Quickie

2011-08-27T21:41:00.002-05:00

Quick,note!My,stupid,keyboard,has,been,broken,for,the,past,3,months!Can't,explain,my,other,absences
but,as,soon,as,i,can,i'll,be,posting,again:)

here,is,a,couple,pics,of,the,kids,though!

April is it spring?

2011-04-26T14:53:00.003-05:00

St Louis was hit so hard by tornados this spring. The storms have been crazy! The rivers are high. 1600 lost their homes or have to piece them together again. More will be lost in the flooding that's already happening. Please say some prayers for these people. Two of them happen to be my elderly grandparents. We were scared there for a bit but they are fine just shook up.

My foot has been bothering me as well. Same thing happened in October. Apparently i'm having a flare up! They said this is a common problem with RA. Well great. So now i'm on vicodin for pain and i have to go out and buy an expensive pair of running shoes for better support. They work better than inserts and my other shoes fit perfectly so they'd be to small with inserts. This is fun huh? Vicodin just seems to make me loopey lol. Pain isn't gone it's just taking the edge off. But i can walk on the foot again with the edge being gone. We'll see how long this lasts.

Gah, can't things go right? Although the sun is out today, the kids are healthy some happy and I guess that's all we can ask for in life right?

A year of JJ

2011-04-11T09:06:00.003-05:00

It was almost a year ago this little guy came into our lives. I can't believe it's almost 1 year! 1 year on thursday April 14!!! Josue John will be 1!! He has been through a lot the past year and will continue! He's thriving and doing well! It makes me teary thinking about this tiny itty baby. He was a special guy and gets even more so as time goes on!

Lily!

2010-10-04T12:18:00.003-05:00

Today my baby girl turned 3!! how did that happen! While digging through pictures I found these. :( Great uncle and Aunt passed away this year within months of each other. Neither ever even got to see JJ but they knew he was coming and would have loved him! Now these pictures are even more precious to me. And the bottom one is mom #2 :) I just think this one was a sweet picture!

Been MIA a lot!

2010-09-22T09:23:00.002-05:00

This is how long I've been gone!! Just been busy creating and just hanging out with the kids. Ok, and I'm a tad bit obsessed with farmville! Gee thanks Linda! So much is going on. The kids are back in school, JJ is getting huge (my little bubba), Lily is a little stinker! It was a weird summer. Didn't really do anything thanks to the job situations but at least they are working right? That counts for something. It's harder for them now to find jobs. It's sad that two legal residents have the hardest time finding a job! They walk in the door and because of the color of their skin and nationality they get shoved right back out. Equal Opportunity my arse!

Anyway, Things have been ok. Katie went to Florida with her aunts this summer. I won't be saying much about that. She had a good time and a bad time and well that's all I'll say. But all in all she says, "I'm grateful no matter what happened because I'd never have seen that stuff and done those things if it wasn't for Aunt Kathleen and Aunt Linda" so she did learn something from it all :) Katie is now in 6th grade and thinking she is cool lol. Skating rinks, malls and movie time oh geez.

Hailey well she's Hailey, starting 2cd grade. She's got some rough road a head of her but well she'll make it. She always does.

Emelina well like Hailey is going into the 2cd grade. Actually they are in the same class. And boy is Emelina a character! Sometimes I wonder who she takes after...........

Lily will be 3 in less than 3 weeks! Can you believe that one? I sure can't :( she's getting big and is so addicted to Dora the explorer. Hope JJ isn't later on I'm getting a tad tired of "i'm the map, i'm the map, I'm the mapppppppppppp" grrrr

JJ is 5 months old. He sings, screams, smiles and is just a happy baby. Ok, screams is the wrong word but that baby is loud and loves to hear himself screech! lol He's a funny little guy.

Well that's about all. Don't have much more to say so i'm going to go play in psp :)

2010-07-07T17:04:00.003-05:00

Emelina and JJ, she loves this baby with every ounce of her being. She's always around him, hates to leave him and just wants to hold, love and feed him all the time! She's a good little momma :)

Another of her just hanging around him :)

JJ enjoying his bouncer :) He is finally starting to like it but is now sleeping in his car seat! lol

He had a doctors appointment last Friday. He was so happy when I laid him down on the table. I didn't get him going at full speed sadly. But he was pumping his arms and legs, talking, gurgling and all that jazz. When Dr Sakmar came in he was even laughing. He said I think he's happy to see me! Doubt that but it was cute!

JJ

2010-07-01T15:30:00.003-05:00

June 10, 1998

2010-06-10T08:16:00.003-05:00

12 years ago today I had Katie Rose. She was 5 lbs 11 oz and 19 inches long. Born at 36 weeks in my pregnancy. I can't believe she's 12 years old today!!!! boy the time has flown!

Phhhhttttt

2010-06-08T08:41:00.003-05:00

Updates

2010-05-25T10:31:00.003-05:00

This was him today! He's getting so big and he is smiling and talking! He's 7 lbs 2 oz as of last Monday. We will find out again in a couple weeks how big he's grown! He's doing so well and he's such a joy to have around! Can't imagine my life without him. Seems like he's been here forever and it's only been a month!

This is Lily and Peyton. Or Bob as Lily likes to call her! They were best buddies when I was in the hospital They are so cute! And "bob" is a lot younger than Lily (about a year) and look at the two of them! Shows you how tiny Lily is. Peyton is your average height and weight (she's so cute she looks just like her mom!) They should get together and play more often!

Here is my oldest Katie. She was so worried that we wouldn't love her now that we have a boy. But she was wrong. This picture just proves that to me. When I see this my heart melts. She is such a sweet and loving girl. She causes problems but I love her dearly and so glad she is mine!

Mothers day

2010-05-09T18:27:00.002-05:00

I don't think it was made for mothers. I've been a mother for 11 years, almost 12 and I've never had a good one. It's like birthdays, they are no better than other days. My kids plant me flowers in school bring it home and lily destroys it. So I have screaming kids, rather have a cup of dirt. That's fine, dirt never hurt anyone.

Then we realize we don't have gas in either car, need diapers (thank god i have a kmart gift certificate) and well things are rough. So we fight and argue about it cause well that's all the men can do in the house.

Then the kids all leave! They all just left, came back 4 hours later and screamed at me cause dinner wasn't on the table! WELL THEY CAN COOK IT!

Josue is cooking dinner but he's so slow! Then he feeds Jose (brother) first! WTH is he a mother? Is he his wife? So now I feel like crap. Always knew I was last but this just confirmed it.

Well, may go to bed without eating. Oh I forgot I'll be up all night with a screaming baby. Don't get me wrong I love that tiny little man but no one else ever cares for him. Josue did for 2 hours while Lily was in er the other day and he acts like he's the only one! Well he's never changed a diaper, never gotten up in the middle of the night, never changed his clothes, sheets, oh you get the drift. OMG he works 25-30 hours a week (not his fault he'd work 70 hours if you let him) and he acts like he's SO tired. come on 5 hours a day? My job is 24 hours, thankless, no one pays me, I'm a doctor, nurse, teacher, police officer, barmaid, cook, wet nurse (ok bottle nurse), but you get the drift. And all I wanted is one day of peace. Who said being a mom was easy?

Updates!!

2010-05-03T08:30:00.002-05:00

Things are going pretty well over here. We took JJ to the doctor when he was 7 days old and he put on a few oz. went from 5 lbs 3 oz at birth to 5 lbs 1 oz a couple days later. Buy that Friday after I was released he was 5 lbs 5 oz and this past friday (at 2 weeks) he was 5 lbs 12 oz! So hes doing great! He did need to come out pretty bad apparently. It's sad but if I had carried him longer what would have happened to him? He's got such a big personality already. I know they say newborns don't do that and they don't smile. BULL!!! He's not a huge smiler yet, but my sister kathleen got him smiling at the hospital and I did last night! Can't believe he'll be 3 weeks old soon :( Getting bigger and older and I can't stop it! lol

The other girls are looking forward to school ending. Only thing is they want to go to summer school. Here they have a great program and if they don't miss any days of summer school they get 100.00 but now with the state cut backs they may not get to go to summer school since they'll have to charge 110.00 a week! that's more than our pad rent for a month for just one week of school! that's crazy!

Katie is looking forward to Florida with her aunts and cousin. She's so bad though makes me wish i could threaten her with well you won't go but she's not stupid especially since she knows that kathleen already paid for her ticket! We were hoping for that 100.00 to help Kathleen with the cost and thing that katie needs and the way things are going around here we may not have he money to give her! we need a new washing machine (went to the flea market to see over this weekend) and our room is hot so we need another window unit for in there cause the baby sweats! He had an interview and is working but they don't give him enough hours. the other brother moved out so we don't have money from him helping with the bills anymore but things will be fine.

Well I better go, JJ is calling! lol

He's Here!!!

2010-04-17T06:07:00.002-05:00

This pregnancy just flew except for the last couple days. Thing went well. Wed we got up and got to the hospital by 5 like they told us only to be told surgery had been pushed back. I was upset but oh well and we could have slept an hour longer! Then Dr Ricketts was late. I was starting to get upset. I kno things happen but I was hungry, thirsty and scared like I am all the time i have surger.

They walked me back into the operating room and the lady to do the spinal was waiting for me. Ok this is flight time!! I warned them and they were all so kind to me. The surger went great! Unlike with Dr Pearson I didn't feel anything I shouldn't have. Pressure and that yes and my ribs are a little bruised. He was high they had no choice and boy was that uncomfortable when they were trying to get him down. But he came. The whole surgery was like 40 minutes long but didn't feel that long. Dr Ricketts was talking and they were joking and even talked to me! Both OBs were fast, efficient and really good at what they do. They also counted everything back to be sure nothing was left insde and they did it so that I could hear which I thought was really nice.

My little stinker was born Wednesday, April 14, 2010 at 9:35 a.m. He was 5 lbs 3 oz and 17 1/2 inches long. He's a beautiful little doll and he's thriving! Good idea to have him a whole week earlier!

I'm a little sore. But that's to be expected. It's worse than Lily but you know thats normal with each other csection. My incision is bleeding a little and i'm not putting out enough. But we will see what will happen.

Thank you for supporting me, cheering me on for the past year!

He's Here!!!

2010-04-17T05:58:00.003-05:00

A date and nerves

2010-03-16T06:15:00.002-05:00

Well we have a date! April 21 is the official date first thing in the morning! That is if things don't happen on their own of course, then I'll be having him sooner since they really don't want me in labor. But that's only a week from my due date 5 weeks from tomorrow! I'm so ready to be back to just me and to have him in my arms instead :). I'm tired of 2 to 3 doc appointments every week. I just want to sit home, not go anywhere and veg out a bit! He's doing great and getting bigger. I look like a house! I haven't been this big since Emelina and he's going to be small lol. Go figure. I've lost so much weight though and he's sitting really high so it makes it look like he's huge!

He's a little stinker though. Everytime I go to get monitored he's all over the place, we lose him and then they feed me to get him moving like they want (they want accelerated heart rates) and he flies off the monitor! What good did that do! But he's growing, doing what he's supposed to and my numbers have come down a bit. The nurse said that could just be hormones calming down they do that between 34 and 36 weeks. So we will see. I don't think they will be upping my dosages on the insulin at all so I think we've done very well! But I can't wait to have that snickers bar and cafe mocha :)

Everything here is ready, and i'm starting to nest. I was up this morning at 5:30 cleaning lol. Go figure, the one thing I hate to do! But the house is looking better. Now if I can just get my husband to work things would be better. He's trying but until Thursday he's still working through the temp company. We'll see!

Another shot!!! plus a video ;)

2010-03-08T17:04:00.003-06:00

He was chewing on his arm :) 4 lbs in the 30th percentile! he's doing great he's just a little stinker! lol

this is hailey and ginger :)

Video

2010-03-05T07:27:00.002-06:00

A boring saturday afternoon

2010-02-28T09:29:00.003-06:00

We had somewhat of a boring Saturday afternoon. Didn't know what to do and the kids were restless and well we didn't want to spend money. So we went to the wild bird sanctuary (we did give a 5.00 donation always do to help the birds) and Lone Elk Park. The birds were beautiful and the bison we actually got to see and some wild turkeys as well. But didn't see any deer or elk in the park like we normally would. They must have been cold and hiding somewhere.

The kids had a great time and enjoyed themselves. Especially Lily. She's getting older and starting to realize things around her and she noticed those bison and got all excited! And she loved the macaw in the bird sanctuary! He's my favorite too and if they weren't so expensive and I didn't have small children I'd have one too!

Most of the birds were hurt and can't be released back into the wild so they keep them and use them to raise awareness while giving them a good life to live. The bald eagle was beautiful and was just stretching his wings before this shot.

Emelina being a ham of course! You see her missing tooth and the one next to it just started coming down. It was so cute with her having no front teeth!

Lily was excited about the bison! She thought they were cool and they had babies with them too so she's yelling baby baby here! Can't wait to see what she does at the hospital. She loves her babies!

Not a great picture of the bison but they were laying right by the road. But my windows need to be cleaned (kids and their fingers!)

Had to show this one. If you notice the duck on the right side he's butt up! Must have been diving for a fish! Kind of neat to get him while he was doing that since I really wasn't trying! lol

It's been a bit

2010-02-27T09:38:00.002-06:00

Been a very very busy time for me. Got everything for baby. I mean everything but some more diapers and a few cans of formula! He's basically ready to go, he just needs to stay in there for a bit and I'm at that stage were anything can happen.

The kids are doing well. Katie has her friends, Emelina is doing so much better in school from what I can see and Hailey well she's Hailey! Lily is getting big, but not literally just more mature. She's so tiny, it reminds me of Hailey.

Josue goes back to work on April 1st unless the weather heats up sooner. Then they could call him back sooner (please please please) but we've basically weathered the storm! We just need to find him an evening job that he can have after boathouse in October. Something is bound to come up right?

An update for those following :)

2010-02-16T06:10:00.002-06:00

We have scheduled the baby date!! I'm not saying it on here due to privacy issues but will let you know if you know how and where to get ahold of me ;) I lost another 6 lbs as well. The nurse laughed and said well this is different! normally women gain that much in a month! lol Well on that stupid diet i'm on i'm sure he's getting everything! Sometimes it feels as if I don't eat at all! But i'm fine and so is he so that's what matters! Go back in 2 weeks for a monitor and then back to the ob for a regular check up!

A few things

2010-02-12T06:03:00.002-06:00

I had an ultrasound on Wed morning and had to bring all 4 kids! They had a snow day and well they were pretty good :) The baby is now 2 lbs 6 oz which they said is not big but not small. I'm figuring if he keeps this rate up we will be at 6/7 lbs at birth and that's perfect :) He isn't breech anymore but they couldn't get the 4d of his face :( He was turned the wrong way lol. He's a stinker already!

We then came home and I was checking my emails when I got one from my mom #2 (yes i have two moms cause i'm lucky like that ;) ) and her Uncle Jack died. Uncle Jack was a good sweet man. I didn't know him as well as I would like to of. He was always quiet and I always felt I was intruding when I tried to talk to him. But he sat there with Josue one christmas and made Josue laugh the entire night. He was a riot sometimes when you finally got him going. He's going to be very much missed in our family.

Well that's about all that's going on, have a doc appointment on monday (funeral is on monday too) but we will have to see what happens if Josue works or not. It's going to be very long and tiresome.

Things

2010-01-20T12:34:00.001-06:00

Today is going to be one of those days. You know the kind that all you want to do is stick your head in the sand like an ostrich? Well that's today! My mother, who has been through breast cancer, diabetes, high blood pressure, stroke and more throughout her life had to have another kind of test done today. I'm probably more nervous than her in a way. I hate being the one sitting here waiting. I want to know, be there and yes part of it is that I'm nosey and the other part is impatience. I just hate knowning I can't do anything for her but pray. Praying is a lot and I'm not underestimating it but I'd love to have been there for her. I hope she's ok, it was at 11 and if things started fine she should be done. I hope things look well, and she's feeling ok.

Nothing exciting

2010-01-19T13:38:00.001-06:00

Just Dropping a post off about nothing exciting. No really, things are stressful but calm around here. Wish they would find jobs or the temp company would work them again but........ oh well. Baby is fine, we finally got to hear the heart beat. Placenta is in the front making that harder to do but he's in there and doing fine. I go back in a month and have to have a blood test done whooo hooo. Just want I want another bruise from the stupid blood people. grrrr

25 weeks!

2010-01-13T17:35:00.002-06:00

He's doing great! He's 1 lb 7 oz and is in the 32cd percentile which they say is excellent especially since I'm diabetic and insulin dependent! He has no birth defects that can be seen (he's perfect!) He was flipping and a flopping and yes he's still breech. And I've been such a nervous nelly for weeks cause there are times I can't feel him move! Well that's cause the placenta is anterior (it's in the front) but it's high so they aren't to worried :)

And yes he's still a boy! lol Darn pregnancy nightmares! Getting together items for a boy is harder than I thought especially since i keep expecting them to say his bits fell off!

Long time no see!

2010-01-12T20:32:00.003-06:00

All right! Someone stole my pc this afternoon!!!! Well, I thought fine, I need to clean up and Maggie was coming over (don't mind my mess lol) She was having a grand time playing, dancing and yelling at Dora. Then I had to use the restroom................
So she decided to use Emelina's Lipstick!! lol Serves me right huh?

We know the sex!!

2009-12-16T16:09:00.002-06:00

Do you?

Venting post

2009-11-14T07:09:00.000-06:00

Ok, this is just a vent! But why is it that a large school district gets 1,800 h1n1 vaccines, has a fridge malfunction and then receive 2500 more when our district hasn't gotten any yet. We are in a large district as well. It doesn't make any sense really. Why are those children more important than ours? I know it's not their fault, it was a fridge malfunction. It could have happened to anyone. I don't blame them for that. But why do they get more, when some schools haven't had the chance to get any?

Now my children have had one of their shots. So we are luckier than a lot of families around here. So it's not really my family I'm upset for. It's for their friends who are getting swine flu, getting sick and being out of school for 2 weeks! Thankfully, none of their friends had severe cases that we are aware of. But they all need these shots and we all need equal chances at them. Personally Jefferson county is doing very well handing them out. Better than the county from what I see. But still it would be nice that our kids can have a chance at the school level to get one as well.

Something funny and something sweet!

2009-10-20T16:04:00.003-05:00

this is at 12 weeks or 12.3 weeks lol The baby is def. bigger than it was before and the results for the screen aren't back yet but.....it looks like a good result so far. 1.0 on the down syndrom test :)

Meet Luna, she likes to push things off my desk, she likes to sit there and attack my hands, the mouse and the cursor! I think she thinks it's funny!

ultra sound!

2009-09-14T17:44:00.003-05:00

Well! This is it!! It's a positive! Can't tell you when though he got 2 different dates lol Both a week off so I have to go back in 2 weeks to see what is what. But he did see the heart beating! He didn't stop to get how fast/slow or beat count. But he said this early it's all fast and it'll change in 2 weeks and that's the one he wants to get but he just wanted to make sure the heart was in fact beating and yes it's only one (thank god lol) he he he Get that Gail! One baby!! he he he he he he

He's keeping me at my date of April 29, 2010 until the next ultrasound. But it'll probably stay the same. So my little bean is in there, thriving, and doing what it's supposed to!!

omg another i'm addicted I tell you! lol

2009-09-09T13:20:00.001-05:00

OMG what am I going to do! lol

2009-09-09T13:11:00.002-05:00

You all are going to think I'm nuts! But I love this show, I'm having withdrawls and it's only been a week and a half and the finale (for the season granted) is Sunday! What am I going to do? lol I've read the first 8 books of the series and have ordered number 9 of Amazon. 10 will be out next year in the beginning I think. We'll have to wait and see! But boy am I addicted. I need the first series on disk! lol

Well, well, well

2009-08-26T15:16:00.003-05:00

I was sitting here the other day realizing I had well a little problem. So I went out and bought a test and it was negative. Well 2 days later still nothing! So I went and got an e quate from walmart. Not digital but a pink one (blue and pink there is a difference pink is so much easier to read) well it was like a half a**ed positive. This went on for 2 more days before I got smart and went to walgreens and bought this clear blue easy digital. Well no doubt about it. Now that our whole family knows I thought I'd let my internet friends know. But I won't be saying when for a bit :) let my family have something you all don't!

Americas Incredible pizza company

2009-08-18T10:55:00.003-05:00

This is the go-carts. What I missed (picture wise) is Katie running over the guy that worked there! lol He miss counted the cars and walked to close the gate at the same time she drove over him. We all got a good laughh out of it but she's still embarrased.

well you can see Hailey's dress! It's the only picture I got of her but she was jumping in the jump thing they had. But it made me mad cause someone elses kids were in there (that didn't make me mad) but i couldn't stick my camera in to get a shot because those kids were going crazy. put it this way they were jumping on rides with other kids when their parents didn't pay for them to ride it without asking and all that stuff.

Emelina looked thrilled didn't she? lol She was having so much fun but on these rides she didn't look like it!

Now you couldn't get lily off this thing!! She sat there and loved the ride!!!! But we eventually had to get off thankfully they were slow!

Ok, we've learned no of this for Lily! She didn't like it!

Kitties!

2009-08-12T12:52:00.001-05:00

They were playing with Hailey and it was so cute!!!

Trouble! lol

2009-07-17T14:31:00.002-05:00

the other morning I got up for Katies surgery and dumb dumb was on the roof! This was taken the next day when I came out and he was in the same place! Figured you all would get a kick out of it lol

Kittens 2

2009-07-17T14:28:00.002-05:00

Kittens!!!

2009-07-11T10:42:00.003-05:00

I was emptying the dishwasher and making tea when i heard this little meow! Sookie was having her kitten in the middle of my hallway! well i grab the basket i had prepared, the clean towels (just in case i needed them) and ran down there and put them both in th basket. well she took that baby and went into josue's closet! oh no! lol i left her alone figured that was safer for her and baby till she was done but she left that baby alone and went into my hallway 5 minutes later and had number 2!!! so i finally got both babies and mom locked into the kids room with the literbox, food, and of course basket with babies. Well an hour and a half later she has number 3!! they are so cute and tiny! Well we thought she was done, she was looking slim and was eating and was comfortable. But no it wasn't over! Right before josue came home at 5:30 she had number 4!!! Omg they are all so cute and tiny!! I took pictures, don't worry i put them on the clean mattress that's up against the wall (my daughter freaked mom they could fall down there uh duh kid you know it's against the wall and i'm right there!! lol) and then i had the 2 in my hands cause the one is almost all black but has tan rings around it's eyes and a little brown on its' rump, and the other one i was holding in my hand has 6 toes like it's daddy does!! lol it's so funny!!!! Anywho, i posted pictures and will keep this updated for those that would like to know how thy are doing. in 8 to 10 weeks we will be finding them homes. so if you live in th area or know of anyone let us know!

Melissa and Bryan Faser

2009-06-28T09:34:00.005-05:00

Your old lives ended, your new life begun!
O may that life be like a splendid sun,
Forever burning, lighting up a way
Of Love and Peace — through an eternal day,
Full of kind deeds, born of a mutual caring,
Sweet little things to make your lives endearing.

O may you love full free that you may give,
With selflessness, as long as you both live,
Not only pleasures, thrills, and joys — well spent!
But hope, and faith, and trust, and sweet content,
To each other … and may you bare your hearts
To learn the maxims there that Love imparts;
And when comes trouble, or a little woe,
Be understanding, and the cause will go.

A wedding is a fusion of two souls,
Two hearts, two loves, two minds, two goals,
Forever into one.... Does that sound wise?
To me, it does; but you must compromise,
That your two lives may blossom as one flower,
Which grows more fragrant every passing hour;
And sends its perfume lingering on the air,
Sweet as a song that will not disappear,
But haunts you with clear notes throughout the day —
And haunts you still, though your youth fade away.

May you love dearly: as Husband and Wife,
Please be the essence of each other’s life —
The yearning and the breath; and yes, the star!
And all the other precious things that are....

Treasure your love, and let your love be true,
Fresh as a rose in dawn’s light’s gems of dew.

True love is great! and wide! and mountain tall!
In width and depth, true love surpasses all!
Such great true love will feel the greatest hurt —
Why, even mountains crumble into dirt....

May God, and all his Angels up above,
Grant you their Peace, to make Divine your Love.

Jefferson City for Katie and Kathleen

2009-05-13T11:42:00.006-05:00

These are pictures of the 4th grades trip to Jefferson City, MO. Aunt Kathleen and Kaitlyn had a lot of fun and I bet the teachers are happy to be in the classroom again!

Wow some old memories!

2009-05-03T08:52:00.003-05:00

I had asked my sister Kathleen to please please please scan some pictures of Katie as a baby and send them to me. I lost most of them in moves, damaged some in a flooded basement and had very few left. I have a lot but I want to make sure I have them all! lol These were of my oldest daughter Kaitlyn who will be 11 in June! I can't believe she's as old as she is. Makes me kind of sad. I also remember the wonder, love and fear I felt. What a combination huh?

April

2009-04-14T06:38:00.004-05:00

It's been a long hard month so far. Easter weekend really really sucked! It started Saturday morning at 4:00 with katie running down the hallway yelling, "fire mom fire!!" Well I jumped out of bed and there was no fire and I got confused (still half asleep) when she yelled, "no mom, Maggies house is on fire!" That's our neighbors little girl, took me half a second to look out the window and see smoke coming from their house. I called 911 and we went on the back porch to see if John got out. I was so scared he hadn't gotten out since his car was sitting out front. He had gotten out thankfully, and other than some smoke inhalation and a couple minor burns he's fine. But his house isn't. It's bad. The fire started with an electrical cord. Apparently, a month before they had a flood before his wife and kids moved out. The extension cord that started the whole thing had gotten wet and was a time bomb waiting to go off. Well the trailer is trash it's still sitting out there and looks so sad :( I'm still having problems sleeping. We weren't real close to Cherie and John but their little one was just a couple months younger than Lily and we were excited that we had each other in this little area cause of the kids.

Then on Easter, we get up to no water pressure at all. I go outside and look under the trailer and bam the pipe is busted!! We did get it fixed but what fun was that! lol Yesterday, Ginger had her surgery. She's now fully vetted and spayed and will eventually be happy :)

Here are some random pictures of the kids. And at the end 2 videos of Josue and Lily :)

Ginger

2009-03-24T22:27:00.002-05:00

Boy did we have a bad start at things. It's hard to think about things you know? What kinds of things affect people different ways. Katie and the others (especially katie though) have begged us for years for a dog. Well we tried when we first moved in here but well, Buddy was insane. So we found him a new home. But we thought a dog that was between 1 and 2 and housebroken would be a great option for us. I wanted a lap dog. Not a small dog but one that would lay at your feet and sleep. With 4 kids it gets hectic enough but stupid us got a shepard mix and a australian cattle dog mix. Well guess what? The old owners of the shepard wanted the dog back! I was stunned! We were going to rehome ginger cause she was crazy! But you know what? things happen for a reason. Katie got 50.00 from them to help her and I know to help soften the blow. But instead of getting another dog (hell no!) we allowed katie to spoil Ginger. So ginger got a bunch of stuff and is now laying here happily (and quietly i may add) at Katies feet on the floor by the couch. She's such a good girl and loves the kids. So I'm happy. Now I just have to figure out I never told those people where I live so how do they know where I lived?? lol

Ok pictures!

2009-03-10T08:26:00.003-05:00

Finding friends :) (it's Trouble with the snake lol)

They were slow dancing! lol aren't they cute!

All I want is my 2 front teeth!

Lazy friends

Am I supposed to eat this?

Why not me?

2009-03-10T08:14:00.001-05:00

Ok, this is just a vent. I'm no means going to do this lol. I"m normal and SANE. But maybe I should take fertility drugs (anyone that knows me knows i don't have to do that) and have 8 babies on top of my struggling 4 and maybe I'll get a new house and nurses to help me care for them for free! Maybe then my hard working husband can not look for a job and someone else will take care of us! You know that octomom is a selfish b*****. she used tax payers money to have the ivf treatments, had them implant 6 had 8 babies and now everything is being handed to her! On a GOLD platter!

We are a struggling family. 4 young girls and it's hard! That woman had no business having those babies! I can see a family planning accident with one baby not working but 8?? She saved her CHILDRENS disability money and used it for ivf treatments and had 8 more? Not working, with no cares about her other 6 children 3 of which are disabled? Come on now!!

This is why people get angry. My husband is a hard worker, he's a good provider. He does the best he can. We can't afford day care. By the time I get clothes, a car, gas, food and a job with daycare it'll cost more to work than I would bring home! It's not worth it! Plus he wants me home with the kids! And I do too! I do a little side stuff (digi scrapping, surveys) that helps with gas sometimes. It's not a lot but it helps. I don't save my childrens money and spend it on myself for selfish things!

Why not buy me a house? Why not take care of my children? Why don't I deserve it? Now my normal sane brain knows people aren't doing this for her they are doing it for the babies and yes they deserve it. But the other side (my heart) just can't understand why we can't catch a break when we are honest, loving hard working parents! My husband looses his job, can't find anything else and we just bought our trailer and a van! If they would have been honest with us 2 weeks ago we hadn't done that!

So you tell me. What is this Octomom going to learn? I bet they'll be out of that house soon. She won't be able to afford the taxes on it. I pray for those babies because they will have a miserable life. No mother by herself can raise 14 kids with help. And i'm not talking nanny help either!

Wow! Ups and downs and it even throws us side to side!

2009-03-01T17:40:00.003-06:00

Here is our new "ride"! We finally got a new van! Our old one is just about to bite the dust. We weren't going to get a van but then Josue started complaining and I dug my feet in. It was me that didn't want it. I love our van and it was breaking my heart! But I was digging around for jobs yesterday in Craigslist and found this. We got an incredible deal on it. It's 3 years newer than ours and drives like it's brand new! It has some minor issues but nothing mechanical so hey we can fix the other things up :)

The kids are doing great. Katie had strep for the 5th time this year and she's getting over it finally. Thank God. The other three are doing great. It's been a pretty good day. Tomorrow we get the rest of the money and then we pick up our van! Can you hear the little squel at the end!? It was so sad, we worked our buts off to get the other one and it meant a lot to us. But we can look on the bright side, another van to make good family memories in!

It's been a crazy couple of weeks

2009-02-20T09:33:00.001-06:00

First our van is going south. Unfortunately, the mechanics that looked at it both said it's repairable but not worth the money spent. So that's going to be gone soon. The heater went out in it and the little car doesn't have one so it's going to be a cold rest of the winter! The kids are doing good. Driving mommy crazy all the time. It's like I never get a moments peace anymore. I think they are getting worse! lol I have some family members going through some rough patches and I say prayers and worry about them daily. But all in all everyone is pretty healthy so that is a blessing. I finally started making scrap kits again. I'm not selling anything though so it kind of sucks but hey, with the economy these days scrap kits or food/gas? I'll keep on trucking cause every 1.00 helps right! I'll get some new pictures of the kids in the next day or so up. Katie has a play coming up too!

WOW Busy busy busy!

2009-02-13T22:48:00.000-06:00

I was so busy I haven't been updating here. The kids are all doing well, getting big, bad and fiesty! lol Go figure. They are off this weekend for a 4 day weekend and are enjoying themselves. All are sleeping at this moment on our little bitty couch!! Cats are playing and I"m trying to relax a bit before dragging them all off to bed! Hope to put some pics and things in here shortly they are all growing so much!

3 Snow Days in a row!

2009-01-29T17:52:00.004-06:00

3 snow days in a row! Enough to drive mom and dad to their knees! lol The kids loved it and I didn't have anything better to do than take pictures! Ha you believed that? he he he

I'm trying mommy!

My tongue doesn't want to stay that way for the picture!

Katie took this, quite good with a camera for a 10 year old isn't she?

Trouble :)

Lily and Daddy

Don't mind Katie's plumber pants :)

Hailey

Emelina

Another sweet one of Lily that Katie took.

Another cutie :) Another Katie masterpiece and if you look hard behind the baby gate is Emelina :)

The video, not sure how it'll turn out when it's done processing but It's Lily dancing in her daddies arms. She's hilarious. Music comes on and she just goes crazy!!

15 months and chuck e cheese :)

2009-01-13T15:25:00.003-06:00

Last Tuesday it was a snow day :) and the kids wanted to go so we said why not. The place was abosultely dead! It was great! The kids had a blast and so did Josue! Lily and I played games and won over 500 tickets by ourselves ;0 wasn't easy with a 15 month old that wants to run away! lol

Today, I took Lily to the doctor for her 15 month check up. She got 2 shots :( and she weighs 18.6 lbs and 28 1/2 inches long. Getting big! She's still tiny and doesn't even hit the chart on weight or height for her age lol

aggravated

2009-01-04T21:18:00.002-06:00

You know, I've been digging around on the internet for a supportive support group for breath holding. I thought if I could connect with other mothers that go through this it may help me. But all I find are a bunch of mean jerks! Maybe I haven't found the right one. but they all tell everyone to walk away! How can I walk away when she tries to follow me, falls over and hurts herself. The other day she did it again when Emelina innocently took something from her she shouldn't have. Not Emelina didn't grab it and pull it or hurt her. She just said can I see that and Lily stupidly gave it to her and when Emelina put it up she got upset and started to cry and had a repeat performance of the day before! I was sitting in my computer chair watching tv and I saw the whole thing and was 2 feet away from the child. She had this pained look on her face, scared and not knowing what was going on and tried to walk over to me. By this time i was already reaching for her but she basically fell into my hands. Now don't tell me I should walk away when she's doing it! Now afterwards you shouldn't baby Lily, I'll agree with that but to walk away while she's doing it?

I guess i'm a little panicky more than most parents. I've seen some crap. 2 years ago my best friends granddaughter died from SIDS. She just died. In her sleep stopped breathing for no reason at all. Perfectly healthy. I had a really hard pregnancy with Lily. I had gestational diabetes and went through a lot. I maintained a perfect diet and she was tiny at birth. During my csection the drugs started wearing off and I could feel the pain of being open like that. Not bad but it was uncomfortable. I went through sleepless nights, not from colic but from reflux. This child was on an extremely expensive diet and ate all the time and she's so tiny! Now she's got this problem. I've just seen a lot, been through a lot and I just can't walk away when she has this attack.

I also don't understand how they couldn't have some sort of treatment for it. There is nothing I can do but give into her every whim? Sometimes she'll be sitting there and start to cough (like today) and it starts up. Her face started to change, her eyes were big and round and i smacked her a couple times and she kind of sat there dazed and then was fine. That wasn't chocking, it's difffernt you can tell the difference between choking and aa breath holding attack. Now this wasn't a full fledge attack but you could tell her body was trying to and she just coughed. She's on a neubulizeer for this cough the doc said it could be the beginning signs of asthma or something her body isn't liking (like cold air) but the meds help get rid of this cough but you only give it to her when it's pretty bad this was just a mild little cough.

I just don't understand why other parents think it's somthing the kids can control. It's involuntary, do they not understand what that word is? I'm not being mean, just don't understand. Not sure what to do and I'm at my wits end. I'll end up in the er having a heart attack eventually.

prayers would be greatly appreciated. I just don't know if Lily and I have the strength to get through this.

Cheese It Monster

2009-01-02T16:27:00.002-06:00

Breath holding

2008-12-31T14:03:00.001-06:00

Wow, this has been a crazy month, the kids were out of school more than in and with the holidays it was crazy! Yesterday we ended up in the ER with Lily (14 months) she's fine but I was cleaning her nose (a small task right?) she went to scream and took a breath, released it, and stopped breathing, her face was turning blue, eyes were rolling back in her head (by this time I was jetting down the hallway with a limp baby screaming for my husband), she passed out as he was grabbing the phone to call 911 and I smacked her back a bit and she woke up breathing, whine for bout 2 seconds and then was dancing and giggling and acting like nothing happened! I was like what??!! I was so shaken up I smoked about 3 cigarettes in a row (yes outside in the cold lol) my husband sat with her while (me smoking) called her peditrician who told us to go to the ER he wanted her heart checked out along with her oxygen levels. She was put on a neubulizer in October for coughing (almost like an asthma cough but she's to little to test or diagnose for that) so we were pretty concerned. So I bundled her up (it was beautiful outside yesterday but I was taking no chances) and went to the hospital. They took one look at her, checked her heart and oxygen levels and told me this.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Breath-holding_spells she's got the second type.

This isn't something she can control. She's not holding her breathe, or she wouldn't turn blue and pass out cause your brain would overpower your willpower especially in a child her age. I was just stunned and alarmed and she did a more mild one today! This is going to be the death of me now I can just see it. She's been a little stinker since she was concieved, causing headaches, diabetes and low blood pressure in mommy lol and then reflux, this maybe asthma thing and now this with her here!

Don't confuse this with her holding her breath. She's not doing this on purpose. And i think that's why it's so scary. Emelina used to physically hold her breath and i'd walk away. I knew she'd start breathing and well she didn't do nothing but make herself dizzy and she still didn't get what she wanted. She stopped after a few times realizing this wasn't going to get her what she wanted. But this is all together different and scary. Although the doctor said not to give her undue attention after this happens (extremely hard) cause they can't force themselves to do this but they could pick up the habit of the things that can cause this and could (but not always) trigger a reaccurance. ugh another thing to worry about cause when you see them do this it's terrifying and all you want to do is cuddle and hold them. I thought i was losing her yesterday and i was near hysterics and couldn't breath myself!

After Christmas fun

2008-12-26T14:28:00.002-06:00

I had some shots of them playing with them but well they wouldn't post here! Errors or something. But the kids got some gift certicates to wally world and this is what they got!! Emelina was so super exited you couldn't see but she was stomping her foot cause well she's been begging for this thing forever! lol Hailey was found after i set up the mp3 player and put the music on she was singing in her room lol. Katie's already made a big mess (normal) well Christmas was very good to them this year. Thanks go Kathleen (sister) and Barb/dad (dad and wife) it was really sweet of you to think of all 4 girls in this way. they just wouldn't let us not get them today and i had to call walmart and have them hold that laptop cause it was the last one! lol

The aftermath

2008-12-25T19:34:00.001-06:00

I don't have to say much about this one lol This is the aftermath of playing all day, eating all day and not sleeping cause of excitement the night before! he he he

Christmas morning ;)

2008-12-25T10:09:00.004-06:00

These always go in backwards :) The tree is the presents and I wanted to show you now that the tree was up for awhile wht the cats did to it! I had to sleep on the couch and guard the presents or the cats would have torn everything open! lol but the kids had a ball! Look at Emelina's face with the roller blades!! She was shocked!

Christmas!! At my mom's ;)

2008-12-25T09:31:00.005-06:00

Yesterday on the 24th we went to my mom's house to see them and spend some time with them. The kids had a great time and it was good to see everyone :) Melissa was trying so hard with Lily but she was being a stinker lol. She finally warmed up and was playing, singing but she still wanted to be held!

Just a few more things!

2008-12-21T14:04:00.003-06:00

Josue with his Christmas present from Katie. lol doesn't look much like santa now does he? lol

Believe it or not i cut her bangs. Not that the other hair will ever stay in place! lol She was hugging on Sookie just thought it was cute :)

Meet Pepper, she's the newest crab in the family. She's russian blue and soemthing else she's a crazy kitty. Not insane like the other we had just not cuddly.

Katie was laying there sleeping and i watched trouble climb up her and go to sleep like that, about a minute later (before i could grab the camera) katie put her arms around him! lol crazy cat and kid!!

We are all looking forward to christmas so there will be more pics to come this week!

Cats, birds and Christmas trees

2008-12-12T16:08:00.003-06:00

Last night we heard this CRASH and all went running. I swear it sounded like someone was breaking in! Well, thankfully my bil was there and able to catch the guilty party and put the birdcage back up so that the birds didn't get out. But boy was there a mess. Then this morning I woke to this. There is no ornaments on the tree and it looks like the tree from Charlie Brown (as per Shannon her cats did the same lol)

Xmas 2008

2008-12-10T12:05:00.002-06:00

The last few years we've been going to Belleville Il, for the Our Lady of the Snows light display. Well this year they had a children's area! We went in to check it out. Boy were the kids happy! They saw a puppet show, made buttons, ornaments, bookmarks, played with other kids, got their pictures taken (see below later lol) they had a ball. Here is a few pictures of what we saw. I'll post a few a day cause there were a lot!

New pictures of Sookie

2008-12-05T13:51:00.001-06:00

Just better pictures :) she's such a sweetie! The same day we got this kitty we got another that night. Unfortuanatly, things didn't go well with her and we had to give her back to her original owners. I'm glad they took her back though cause with the way she was acting we couldn't keep her and if she had to go to the pound they'd have put her to sleep and all the no kill shelters around here are full! But the kids have sookie and trouble and shes a little doll so we are quite content :)

Sookie

2008-12-03T16:14:00.003-06:00

To ease the pain of Shadow we got Sookie!! We got her from a really nice family that saved her and her mommy. She is really really sweet but is a little scared at this point. But she'll be fine :) she's got such a pretty little face!

Shadow

2008-11-29T17:36:00.003-06:00

We had a lovely Thanksgiving and the weather was really nice! The food good, company good (just us lol) but we all had a nice time. Late in the evening we were cleaning up and taking out trash when Shadow ran out. Now for those of you that know us you know this wasn't strange. He would climb my back to get out of the house to get to the window. He was crazy like that. You couldn't keep him inside. Well he never came home. I knew something was up cause that was unlike him and it was starting to get cold. Well we went to bed but still no Shadow. Unfortunately, someone didn't see him and he didn't get out of the way fast enough and got hit by a car. I feel so guilty. had i looked for him would I have found him in time? Would he be ok? Would he be home with us when he passed away? It's hard to tell. The poor thing.

Trouble has been having a hard time adjusting and Katie has been really upset. So this is how these 2 have been more than normal. She picked him up and laid down and he made himself comfy! Thank God for Trouble becuase without him the kids would be lost.

Pig Roast

2008-11-24T14:30:00.004-06:00

This was Josue after we got home. Can you tell the beer was a little fun for him? lol He's not a drinker, plus he wouldn't eat so.....A little tipsy he got. But he was in good spirits and just talked our ears off. Jose in the background was like ok, whatever lol. Of course, he was holding Lily but not for long let me tell you. I took the pic and ran lol.

The others are pictures of around the farm. Just wanted to show those views and things. The band in front of the farm house, a little barn/house thing and then the girls are friends of mine and daughters of Maggie. Lisa and Emily are Maggies daughters and Laureen is a friend of Lisa's. They went out there to work to make a little extra cash :)

Katie's Feast

2008-11-24T07:58:00.002-06:00

For the last couple months they have been studying Missouri History. This past few weeks it was about the different Indian tribes that Lewis and Clark met on their trek down the Mississippi. Well Friday they had a feast to celebrate their finish just like the Indians did with the pilgrims. It was a good time. They had ham, turkey and a whole spread of wonderful dishes all the parents brought to the feast. These are the pics I took. No one else brought their cameras and I should have taken more of the whole class for the teacher. Hindsight is 20/20 they say lol But these are of Katie. The first 2 is Katie reading what she wrote that she's thankful for. The teacher is the lady standing behind her in the blue shirt. That's Mrs. Quinn.

Just some things I got ;)

2008-11-16T19:41:00.003-06:00

You know i put these in to be uploaded in a certain order and they never go the way I plan lol. They are just some random shots :) This is Uncle Jose and Lily. She's checking him out. It's funny cause her daddy is Uncle Jose's twin brother and she's never gotten them confused :)

Mommy pick me up and put that stupid camera down!

That stupid squirrel tried to bring a doll dress up the tree. he just sat there trying to get a good handle on it but couldn't. It dropped down about a minute later. This is a pretty high tree so he almost had it!

Daddy and his baby

She loves her daddy! She's always climbing up in his arms. It's so funny to watch them together :)

She's walking!

2008-11-09T20:27:00.002-06:00

She's moving now!!

Halloween and more

2008-11-03T12:14:00.003-06:00

The kids had a good time. Wasn't the most busy trick or treat place we've been but no one was doing anything over here it sucked. We didn't have money to spend on costumes this year but they made do with what we had.

Don't mind the crab in the picture.

These 2 videos were takin yesterday. Lily was dancing and having a grand time!!

Lily in her walker lol don't ask about that expression!

Katie's Program :)

2008-10-30T22:56:00.003-05:00

These are some randome pictures from Tuesday nights concert. It was a Missouri history themed concert/play. The kids were all cute. Katie was just in the choir this time but next time we are going to make sure she tries out.

Katie again.

Hailey being silly before the concert started

Emelina always got that expression on her face lol

Daddy has me. Aren't I getting big :) I"m just as beautiful as my sisters are :)

Just a few pictures

2008-10-17T11:46:00.004-05:00

These are just some random photos I took and got off my camera before charging it. This was Lily eating ravoli. Anyone want some sticky fingers? lol

This is Trouble. He's something else and had crawled under the blanket Katie was laying on.

This is Shadow. He's a good boy. He pooped on Jose's carpet and it was worth cleaning it up cause Jose locked him in his room yesterday and we didn't know and he stepped in it when he got home he he he he. Serves him right.

Lily was dancing and going crazy this morning so I got the camera out. I hope it comes out ok sometimes they are to dark. But don't mind my big mouth i was trying to get her to show off for the camera. Well she did but not this way! lol

Something cute and a new layout

2008-10-13T10:34:00.002-05:00

Sitting here bored after my whirlwind cleaning ;) 2 times a year I go through my entire house and flush it of all the crap we don't need but tend to accumulate. With 4 kids, 2 men that are pack rats you can't even imagine how much stuff we threw out. Shhh don't tell Josue! lol The house is spotless! It's cleaner than when we moved in. Lily is getting bigger and crawling trying to walk as well. Hailey loves the kitties and she fell asleep last week with the kitten lol

They are moving her to the other elementary school. I'm worried they rushed her out of there. She still has issues and i'm not sure she's fully ready. Oh well, let them do it. I'll teach her at home is she continues to have issues. I'm not stupid and i'm not going to let my CHILD GET LEFT BEHIND! I hate this stupid rule. they only want her out of Brennan cause she is struggling and they won't get their precious blue ribbon for no child left behind.

ok, that rant out lol hope you all have a great week and thanks for reading the blog! thanks to Lisa for sharing her incredible talent with us. I used her graphics for my blog here. She offers them freely and tells you how to use them. I can do my own but they are a pain in the rear and hers are great! So here is a touch of love for her and go check her site out!

Scrap Your Blog

Emelina!!

2008-10-06T19:04:00.001-05:00

Wow!! She's getting to be a big girl! She came up to me this evening and said, "mom, mom, mom!" and I said "what?!" her tooth was loose!! This will be her first one! Hailey has only lost one tooth so far and boy Emelina's is loose already! Yeah her! lol It's funny cause Lily is working so hard to get them in her mouth and Emelina and Hailey are trying to get them out :)

The day after

2008-10-05T08:23:00.002-05:00

Well Maggie came by yesterday afternoon with presents and this was her expression :)

oh no she's got me!

my phone

Yummy cake!!

She had a great birthday! She started out the week with a ecard from Grandma and Grandpa on the one side, got a card from Grandma and Grandpa on the other side with $5.00 in it, got a card and a bunch of other little stuff from Grandma Maggie (a stacker, frog bath toys, a musical chime thing, a phone that you pull behind you and it's eyes move, a sorting toy an a pop ring thing) and then we got her a piano (it's on a stand and it plays music and lights up and no not a real piano) and we got her the phone in the picture. Later she got an ecard from her Aunt Kathleen as well! She's a silly baby and has had so much fun with it all. And we wanted to tell you all thank you for the birthday wishes!

Wow! Today she's 1!

2008-10-04T07:18:00.005-05:00

Today I thought I had to say something in this blog. I've been so emotional for a month. Lily turns 1 today. How did this happen? I still feel like I should be giving birth to her and not giving her cake! She's so tiny and I love her so much. I don't know what it is about Lily with me. Is it cause she was only 5 lbs 13 oz and 18 inches long? Was it the diabetes and all the prepration I had to do before she came and everything I went through? Is it the nights I was awake with her reflux acting up. All the burping and puking on me? I wasn't like this with the other 3. A little teary but not like this. This is full blown tears almost daily.

She started out like this.

Everyone coming to see her at the hospital. This is Barb my step mom holding her. This is one of my fav. pics. Her little foot was just hanging out there lol My mom was there too.

My mom with her. Now Lily is named after my mother. My mom is one of the strongest women I know. She's been through so much. She has 4 daughters, went through breast cancer, diabetes, heart problems (blood pressure) and then a stroke. She's doing great and still fighting! Now my mothers name is Barb (yes just like my step mom lol) her middle name is Lilly. We just changed the spelling on it. I thought Lily like the flower was appropriate and so it went. Like the beautiful woman above and the beautiful flower as well :) That's my step dad Alan in the background there as well. He has stuck by my mother through everything and really takes care of her. Most men would have left already. But this is what you call love. I'm a very blessed woman cause I have wonderful parents. My step mom and dad I love as I do my own parents. I'm lucky cause I can honestly say I have 2 sets of parents that I love. Most only get one set :)

My father with Lily. It's always funny to see him holding such a small baby. But he did it 3 times before :) And of course the other grandbabies as well. He's just a gentle man and most babies love him (as far as i've seen except Katie she was scared of him after she turned a year but she was scared of men in general not just my father)

One of my beautiful sisters! This was at the hospital. Kathleen was holding her here :) I have pics with the others too but that's another day. This is for her bday :)

This is Maggie with her at the hospital. Maggie is my best friend and it touches me she was there for this. She waited anxiously for us to call her to tell her she was there. Boy she came up fast too lol And now she's a grandma of another baby Peyton. Her daughter had her baby in August :) Lily will have a friend to play with!

Don't look at the fat blob in the bed. That was just a little later in the day when she was born. That is of course mom and dad :) (my hair is past my shoulders now lol)

First smiles

Hailey's bday right before Christmas. Katie was holding her one of my all time favs.

Don't ask. I took the picture and she made that face! lol

This is her now! Can you believe it? I'm just lost without that small cute cuddly baby in the house. Now she smacks, head butts (it's not funny it hurts! lol) and she's eating everything in sight. She steals your food and is a typical 1 year old. She's crawling, trying to walk, she stands up in the middle of the floor unassisted and does the so big cause she's excited. Soon she's going to run off and she's really not a baby anymore :( I know they have to grow up but can't it take a little longer?

Well anyway, Happy Birthday to my bright eyed beautiful baby girl! May you have this one and many more beautiful birthdays with us!

Apple picking time!

2008-09-25T10:54:00.004-05:00

You know the only thing i don't like about blogger is it's hard to move the pictures around! lol I uploaded them in the right order and it never puts them the same way :( These are pictures of us going to Ill. yesterday to go apple picking. The kids had a blast. We had a gift card for things from the eckerts store so i called to find out if we could use it picking apples and they said sure! So it only cost us a couple bucks to get to Belleville to do this. These are pictures of going there and a couple of the kids. I didn't get any of the orchard or the buildings around Eckerts (i was to busy wrangling 3 excited kids.

This place here has a spectacular christmas light display we go to every year. They also have a petting zoo which is free (unless you feed them) and camel rides. This year hopefully we have money to do the camel rides they aren't expensive and the light display is free. They take donations so we usually give a few bucks to them. It's a wonderful family place to take your children to that gives the true meaning of the holiday anyway.

This was me being silly with the camera. It's just the road leading to eckerts lol.

See an out of order picture! lol To lazy to try to move it though. That's Katie, she wouldn't look at me and told me i was being stupid.

Got more mom put that camera away from Emelina as well. She couldn't get them off the tree it was funny! I finally told her twist them they'll come off easier and she did.

They kept going towards the green ones! On the other side was red delicious (yummy) But Hailey was having fun and she could SEE the apples lol

Just a view from the JB Bridge of the Mississippi when you drive over. This was going home actually. Katie asked me on the way home what lake is that? I said Katie, you know the river that is and she really didn't! When I told her it was the Mississippi she freaked omg mom it's huge. Now we've gone over this bridge countless times lol

Emelina being silly on the way there :) But Hailey thinks it's funny cause i'm facing forward and i just put the camera back there and clicked. Katie is doing homework since she played hookie yesterday. She did go back today with all her work done. I told her homework done BEFORE we get to Eckerts or you'll sit in the car with dad. It was done and correct! lol

Don't mind the car dealership. I was trying to get the arch. You can kind of see it back there. You can see it from the east side pretty well sometimes. It's just the trees are full and tall at the moment.

here is a better view of the arch and some of the surrounding buildings in downtown St Louis. We talked about maybe their next day off (not till november) we will go up in the arch. That gives us sometime to get some money saved. I'll def. take pictures up there.

Well that was our trip. Now i have a fridge full of apples. We gave a few to the neighbor next door for their little girl she loves them. We gave a few to Mary, Jose's girlfriend. And so now i have to figure out what to do with the rest. Thank God we didn't have a whole lot of money because he'd have gotten more! So anyone want an apple?

More!

2008-09-24T15:33:00.002-05:00

Lily waving bye bye at me

Lily being cute

Katie didn't think I'd post this one lol

Hailey always looks like a deer with its eyes in the headlights :)

Lily and Katie playing

I'm Alive

2008-09-24T15:20:00.001-05:00

Lily was outside this morning with Katie (she played hookie) and the song came on the radio on my pc. She started giggling and rocking and dancing! I have more pictures and another video to come!

A new lo

2008-09-24T09:24:00.001-05:00

Just showing off my new lo. I'm still taking that class and it hasn't been any layouts for a while but this one popped in. Took a lot of time to get myself motivated to do it lol. I like doing layouts on my own and not with a tutorial but it's cute. plus i don't have any cute new pics. But i'll have a better layout soon (hopefully with a cake!!)

For the love of Josue

2008-09-20T18:41:00.002-05:00

This was made with one of my kits I made. It was the day we went to the zoo and i did it for a challenge. The girl gave us the template, basically a blank canvas with the picture box and the little upright rectangle and that was it. You had to decorate it and make it your own. So I used my kit and this picture. It's just a sweet pic of them and it is animated. if it's not moving click on the pic to enlarge it and it should be moving ;)

Glasses and more

2008-09-15T19:42:00.003-05:00

Katie and Hailey had to get glasses. Katies are stronger than mine which was surprising. We only have glasses because of astigmistisms but hers are apparetnly worse than mine. But poor Hailey is far sighted and couldn't see for who knows how long. but she's happy and adorable in hers! She's being a good girl and leaving them on as well :)

These are our new friends getting comfy in their boxes. but i don't think they are going to last long here unfortunately but that's ok. We didn't go out and get them tey found us and we got them out of the elements, fed, cleaned and will probably find them new homes. they are driving josue crazy!

OMG! I got a good shot!

2008-09-07T16:38:00.003-05:00

This is Lily's favorite toy we got her. Well worth the 80.00 it cost. Trust me, you got a baby or one on the way this is a must have. She plays in it for hours (if i let her lol) well i opened the door since she was in here and wow there was light! lol so watch the baby and you can hear her giggling (would have been better if her uncle would have respected it and turned the tv down lol so don't mind the stupid spanish show he's watch (no offence spanish isnt' stupid it's the show that's stupid lol) )

Dancey, dancey Lily :)

2008-09-07T13:44:00.003-05:00

This video may turn out dark. no matter how many lights i have unless we are outside this camera doesn't pick up things very well. Well for regular photos it does. But Lily was dancing in front of the tv when the movie Footloose came on and she started dancing to the music. You can hear her giggling and talking lol it's funny :)

blah when it rains it pours

2008-09-04T16:59:00.001-05:00

Well things were going along, not great but it was going. now we are at another stand still. the car broke down, it's raining so bad we can't do anything with it, we got to money till tomorrow but no way to get it, no way to get them to work, or nothing. it's going to be very interesting

The project

2008-09-02T07:33:00.002-05:00

Ok, now I have the 2 liter bottle. No person in Missouri History she's picked and no idea where to go from here. But I got the easy part :) It's a start right? This weekend was interesting. Didn't even feel like my birthday. Didn't do anything. I got that beautiful locket and some pictures from Maggie, dinner cooked for me. Some emails from online friends and ecards from family. Some late some not. Just been interesting. So anyone have any ideas on the project. Cause you know this is my project. and anyone got a hot glue gun they can let me borrow? ugh, all the things I have to buy for this it's not right. ok, now i'm going to go scream lol

My Birthday Present

2008-08-31T06:45:00.003-05:00

My 33rd bday was yesterday. Day went ok, was just a normal day really. Josue went to work. Then he came home and cooked rice, bbq'd pork and bbq beans. Nothing real special but he cooked it after he spent all day in the heat grilling for other people at work. So that's what made it special. We don't exchange gifts because we don't have the money and like he says we would just buy each other things we don't need or want really. So on his bday (he's a twin) I bake a cake for both of them (bil lives here) and cook a nice meal something they both like a lot. And he cooked for me this year. My sister sent me this cute Anne Geddes card and the other sister emailed me and sent me a smileygram (i think that's what it was called) but it had pics of the kids and the 4 of us sisters together it was sweet and brought a smile to my face. My mother called and sent me a card and well i didn't hear from my father. But the kicker is what my best friend did. Let me give you some history here. Hold on it gets confusing.

Lisa and I met at Six Flags the year I was 15. There was a dance club there and we just happened to be dancing in the same group and started talking. We realized we lived just blocks from each other! Which is surprising because we were about 40 minutes from home! lol Well the next day she comes over (after running into a parked car with her bike lol don't know how she did that one) but we became pretty close and went through a lot together. A few years later she met a young man and ran off to work the carnivals with him and some friends. We lost touch and then she moved out of town with a different guy and lived there for about 6 years. In that six years, her mom Maggie and I became very close. I know I held her together for some rough times and she's done the same for me. She's my best friend even though there are many years in between us. She's the only one that truly understands me in ways my family doesn't. That's not a bad thing now sometimes there are things you just don't discuss with your family. Maggie is very sweet and giving. And yesterday she came over with my present. Boy was I surprised. I opened the envelope to find pictures of my baby Lily from the hospital! I was shocked! I didn't expect that at all and of course I started tearing up cause we couldn't afford to buy them and out of all 4 kids hers were the best! She's like did you look in the envelope. Well i did but I didn't notice the other piece in there. It was the locket I had wanted so bad! We were going to buy it and decided to wait and get a gold one with 4 slots so i could put all 4 kids in there. Well she got the one from the hospital with Lily's hospital picture in it for me! Of course I started to cry till i put it on and it fell off! lol the chain is small and the ring where it goes in was open a bit so it came disconnected :( I got it fixed and it's holding. I'm going to take it to Walmart with me and see if they will help me fix it permantely. It won't cost much or if anything cause it doesn't need anything but to be sealed off properly and they can do that there with a lot more expertise than I could. But I was shocked and I can't stop looking at Lily. She's gotten so big and it's not till you look at those newborn pictures and say wow. She's crawling and standing and cruising and wow. Last year at this time i was complaining cause i didn't get any cake or anything. lol I was pregnant still and had gestational diabetes. Can't have cake then! And now she's walking and eating my bday cake! Well here are a couple pics of my present so you all can see what I'm talking about.

Mommies little stars

2008-08-30T08:58:00.002-05:00

Only 5 more of these lessons then i start the actual embelishment/paper making although I know how to do most of them. but you never know i may learn something!

Hello!

2008-08-29T08:45:00.001-05:00

Do the schools think you are rich?

2008-08-28T20:49:00.001-05:00

Katie has a project due in one month and i'm not a crafty person. Ok, i can psp and i can do things. I'm creative but i'm stupid when it comes to hands on and it always looks like a 2 year old did it. And now Katie has to make a person from missouri with a 2 liter bottle! oh come on. Do they think we are rich. I have a list of supplies i have to get and it's like 30 dollars worth! That would give us over half a tank of gas! Are they crazy? Is everyone there rich? i wrote her a note and asked her for help here. I can't do all that, sure the 2 liter bottle but the rest of it? i wouldn't even know where to get some of the stuff (craft stores probably) and they aren't cheap! our walmart cut their crafting stuff down in half. i'm so aggravated. Wish they'd let her do something on the pc then i could help her lol even if it is mouse draw jesse james! ahhhhhhh

Lily

2008-08-28T13:03:00.004-05:00

Hi!

Are you looking at me?

Stuffed, snoreeeee

Time to start all over again!

Didn't feel I needed a whole lot of words here. She's something else. She runs around in a diaper for many reasons for 1. it's hot in here. our ac doesn't work for nothing and right now i'm sitting in front of a fan sweating. 2. she can and i can't 3. she's a baby. i knew i'd get someone say where's the kids clothes. Trust me she wears them lol Just thought i'd share some of the newest ones :)

Sleeping Beauty

2008-08-26T10:55:00.001-05:00

Took this picture a few weeks ago but it was to cute not to play with :)

Lots of things going on ;)

2008-08-22T15:26:00.003-05:00

Well, Lily is finally feeling better so much better she's being a little twerp! Bouncing everywhere, talking up a storm and man does that little girl get around! I entered her into a showdown at cafemom and she won :) of course but the other baby was just as cute!

Emelina is doing great at school! Making new friends and doing so well! Her handwriting only a week into school is already better than Hailey's. She's coloring in the lines and just learning up a storm. No worries about her here!

Hailey, well she's more advanced than the other kids but this is her second time in kindergarten. She's doing well though and the teacher said has shown progress since the last day of school so we are hopeful things are going to go well.

Katie, well she's Katie, but so far she's had to tests and got a 95 in one and 100% in the other! So I'm excited it's a good start! She seems happier in school.

I've been working up a storm. Got another kit in the store at Moo Two. Working on another that will be in Moo Two and Memory Junkies :) Got to start advertising them big time. So if you know anyone that scraps let me know :) You can check out my latest additions here at my scrap blog. Designs by Cindi

What's going on?

2008-08-20T13:37:00.002-05:00

Things have been a little crazy around here. Josue is off and it's just me and him the past 2 days it's been really nice. Lily is here of course but she's not a hassle at all. She's a good baby. She's been sick for the past 24/30 hours. Poor thing had a fever of 101.8 and no poopoos :( But shes' doing much better. Been giving her 2 oz of apple juice a day and tylenol and then switched to infants advil. She's doing great! Fever is gone and well things are moving again! lol She also got the cutest thing today at walgreens. We are broke and i felt bad cause she really liked this so i put the paper towells back for her. She got this little frog that lights up and croaks a few kids songs and she loves it!! She's been playing with it for about 2 hours. I'll have to get it from her later and video tape it so you can see what it is. Who needs paper towells anyway right? lol Kids are doing good in school and it's been quiet and peaceful. Last night we bbq'd and the kids had a ball playing outside. They need this time and no one had homework so no fights! whooo hooooo lol

Emelina's First day of school

2008-08-15T13:37:00.001-05:00

Things have been wacky. Lily cried all day looking for them, the buses arrive at the same time, a man hits a telephone pole and we couldn't get home last night and wow. But I had to finish a scrap I was working on and then I got to play for a bit before I get back to work (i've been bad!) This was her getting off the bus. She loved school but a little boy is already picking on her.